Since starting uni, I have become increasingly aware of something - I love to write. I've always known I could write, but was never really sure if it was something I was truly passionate about. University has certainly confirmed that I do indeed love words.
It sounds simple yet my mind frequently wanders. Just because you love something, doesn't mean you'll make something out of it. Writing is a tough gig. And although I find my self confidence growing by the day, there is still a lot of doubt inside me. I've never really believed I was capable of doing anything worthwhile.
A close family member recently told me that they thought my previous blog was a bit too personal. The person meant no malice, and was only looking out for what they considered to be my best interests. I was hurt at first. I put myself out there because it felt right. In hindsight though, it was probably a bit random and out of context. As an aspiring writer, I need to learn how to choose my moments. I shouldn't need to advertise my posts on facebook just for the sake of it.
At this stage, I am not sure that blogging is my destiny. Globetrotting Antics has never had a real structure, and although I have had moments where I thought it would be something great, I don't believe it has ever really 'taken off' as a travel blog. My twitter and facebook advertising efforts have essentially failed. And that's ok. I never really tried that hard! Truth be told, I still don't really know who I am and I think that comes across in my writing.
However I also know that if I want to be creative, I need an outlet. Plus, I want to continue with my monthly travel blogging project. SO - I'm not shutting down the blog! I'm just going to stop writing as though I have an audience, and I won't be posting links on social networks. This blog is going to be completely selfish - a personal journey that people can stumble upon, only if they so desire.
“Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
* Bee photo taken by large, ginger man